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HOW I'VE MISSED YOU!!

We're all settled in out apartment and the internet guy came today, I'm so happy I could crey!! I've already accomplished SO much in the few hours of being home. I can't believe it's already 10:00! I feel like I just sat down lol.

I have so much fic to work on I'm kind of at a loss as where to start. I've been balancing my projects really well to this point, but now I just look at all of them and think "Holy Fuck...what am I doing?" lol. I think my first goal needs to be going over the beta remarks on my bb and getting that fixed so it's ready for the rough draft check-in. Then I want to perhaps finish my Merlin hols and work on my rbb (which it looks like that's getting an extension for the whole comm so woot!). After all those are done I can try and chip away at my super bang.

Bah. Must not get to stressed!!!

*nod*

I hope everyone is doing well. My thoughts are with all those out east dealing with Hurricane Sandy. Be safe!!

Current Mood: cheerful

It's been a rough day at work. I essentially got in trouble for laughing, because it quote on quote "makes it look like you're having fun". Apparently you're not allowed to be human. My boss, who I normally adore, inadvertently publicly humiliated me in front of our entire team. I spent the rest of the morning not talking to a single soul. This is all coming from the same bitch elitist lawyer that pulled this crap last time. Apparently everyone else at the firm is a workhorse for her to abuse. It's annoying and I've never been one to conform to ridiculous expectations (which is why I really don't get along with the business world very well) and I think it's plain fucking retarded that if you don't "look" busy you're not doing your job, or that laughing to relieve stress is unprofessional. Where's the trust with your employees?

After this little episode I'm pretty much done with them. I don't care how far behind we are I'm not going in on weekends or staying late. If I'm going to be chastised for fucking laughing I'm NOT giving them any extra of my precious time. Life is to short for that. If we weren't leaving in a few months I would have put my two weeks in right then and there. I've worked at an abusive place before and I absolutely won't do it again. I respect myself more than that thank you.

*sigh* right now I'm on lunch break at this quaint coffee shop down the street. It's relaxing and I have my headphones so I'm jamming to some Kate Nash (she's fucking awesome- I highly recommend her). Some chai and chocolate cake are doing wonders for my mood. Still ready for the day to be over though. My sour mood is perfect for writing some Scott/Allison/Jackson infidelity fic and that fic seriously needs some WORDS!! I hadn't realized they'd moved that date up til end of November so I got to get a move on. Everything else is on track though :)

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Oh life!

As far as real life goes things are moving along. Work is good. I really like all my co-workers and what I do. Typing is calming to me (which I obviously thinks come from all the writing I do for fandom) and there's always something to do so the day passes really quickly. The only big drawback is that it doesn't pay well. I mean it does for someone with no education, but for having a masters degree it's really just a joke. We're official moving in March though so I'm looking for something more in my field. I want to be a key account relationship manager. We'll see how it goes. I think I'd actually be good at it though.

The only other drawback to the office is all the DRAMA. There's around 100 women all in the same space so things often get out of hand as I'm sure you can imagine. Fortunately it doesn't really bother me. Except for when it threatens my work value or character. Most of the lawyers are elitist jerks, but I don't see most of them and the ones I do work with are nice (most of the time).

Next week we're moving out of my parents house and into our own apartment closer to our current jobs. I'M EXCITED!!!!! Living with my mom has been nice since they're moving so far away and I won't get to see them often, but I need my own space like whoa. If I don't get time to myself I get grumpy and feel on edge. I've been trying to cope but I'm starting to feel boxed in and am just SO READY for Jared and I to have our own place again. Not to mention our own internet that actually works.

As for fandom I added 3k words to my superbang fic that I wasn't sure I was actually going to do. It's an infidelity fic and I normally won't touch the subject. I don't know why my muse wanted to write it. I've been in weird moods lately and it's been strangely easy to write. Though writing everything from Allison's point of view is kind of strange. She's an odd character that I actually don't care for very much. Regardless, I do like what I have so far. It's going to be angsty and a little dark. Mainly I'm just proud of doing something so far out of my comfort zone even though I doubt anyone will even read it >.> <.<

I haven't been able to watch the past two Merlin's because I don't have a good enough connection to download them :((( I've seen spoilers on Tumblr and dear goodness me, I NEED TO SEE THESE EPS LIKE I NEED AIR!!!!! NEXT WEEKEND I'M DOWNLOADING THEM ALL!!!

Supernatural...well I can't even deal with all the feelings of the Destiel. No really, if I try and talk about I'll end up in a giant pile of goo and feelings.

TVD has been amazing and I'm super excited to see where they go with it. Overall just super happy to have my fall lineup back. WOOT!!

Oh man flist. I am TIRED!! Work has been crazy lately. We're understaffed and getting behind in typing so us three typists are running around like crazy ppl attempting to keep up. Today I was so consumed in my tasks that I didn't stop moving to eat lunch until 2:30 and then I didn't take an afternoon break either (plus I ate at my desk). I barely even noticed though because I was just that busy. *whew* Monday won't be any better either since one of us will be on vacation.

After work I left straight for a neighboring town to play Magic. Driving back home now and it's nearly 3am. SLEEPY!!!!! Magic was fun though. Granted I'm super competitive and feel like I need to prove myself since I'm the only girl and that makes me super pissed when I lose lol XD

Due to the lack of real Internet my replies are either slow or nonexistent and I'm sorry for that. Hopefully in a few weeks when we move into our apartment ill be able to be more active again. I've barely been able to participate in October Swap and that makes me so sad!

Finally,

Have a hot and mushy 1D Larry fic rec

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I've been bit by the green eyed monster lately. I find myself being jealous and even angry with people in real life and in fandom. I just keep seeing all these people getting everything they've worked hard for while I seem to be running around in circles. Please don't misunderstand, I'm not that person that wants everyone around me to be less fortunate or miserable to boost myself up. Rather I'm just terrified I'm never going to hit my own stride in life when I've worked really fucking hard too.

*sigh* if things aren't looking up by the end of next year I don't know what I'm going to do. In the meantime I'm going to keep chugging on and try and tell that little green monster he's a jerk and to leave me alone. ^^

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Had a wonderful weekend but I didn't get much writing done. I wanted to completely finish my minibang but I only got to add about 800 words to one of them. I am almost finished with the Lydia/Peter though is 2/5 will be done. I've decided one of them will be Scott/Isaac sounding (EEK! My first sound fic and I'm EXCITED ppl) and maybe a Papa Stilinski/Mr. Argent fic because I've recently discovered this pairing and I immediately fell in love with it. (I can't get on board the recently popular Chris/Peter train)

I got my fall harvest fest assignment and I'm a little nervous. Without saying too much- the ideas the promoter wants aren't exactly my specialty. Nothing crazy, just not something I'd usually do. I'm not really even brainstorming about that yet though. Not til minibang is done and I get my reverse bang art- claims are THIS weekend. Super duper excited about it.

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Well for the first time since I started I'm not enjoying work AT ALL today. They still don't have a desk for me after two weeks and it will probably be another two to three weeks before I get one. So essentially I have to share a computer with my trainer and that really cuts down on our productivity :(((((( I'm already typing as fast as a seasoned typist so it would be nice to have my own computer.

Today it was bad because my team lead wasn't there and the other team lead was in charge. Well her and my trainer lady got into it about where I should be/what I should be doing and it's made the entire day incredibly awkward. The worst part of it all is that the team lead thinks I should be learning this entire other part of the process when I've only been there two weeks. It's boring and the girl who normally does it couldn't train someone to save her life. She literally showed me on her comp two times and then said, hey go do it yourself! um....ok. good thing I'm a quick learner! Then on top of that, she made me go use the comp I had been using to type Judgements on---so why exactly couldn't I just do the job I was hired to do and know how to do really well? guh....people are frustrating and immature. I hate workplace politics. Just leave me alone at my desk and I'll type my little heart out for you- drag me into bullshit like that and I'll quit faster than you can blink. BOO!!!!

On a side note--I really want to sign up for the TVD fic exchange. I KNOW!!! I'm a terrible person :/ I have so much on my plate already and I feel like I never have any time to write- which is depressing. I'm going to come back to the library after work tonight so I can actually get some stuff done. Signups for TVD thing end in two weeks so I'm going to see how much I get done inbetween now and then. I'd like to have my kinkspiration and mini bang stuff done with just my big bang left (which I already have 5k for so 1/3 done. woot!)

Btw, does anyone know if the Merlin Free for Fall Swap is gonna happen again this year? I haven't seen anything about it and I had so much fun making/writing stuff for people and I just ADORED getting packages from peeps.

*deep breath* I've been trying to work through my lunches to make extra money, but after the hoopla this morning I had to get away for a while. Rant was much needed and I feel a bit better now :)

Current Mood: frustrated

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Current Mood: ecstatic

Someone really needs to tell me to stop....

I'm participating in:
Big Bang- 15k
Mini Bang- 10k
Stop_Drop_Howl: 24 hr. time limit
Kinkspiration: Due in a few weeks (though not required)

and I'm considering signing up to do the beacon_hills challenge com. Plus I do have two Merlin fics I need to add to eventually and the next installment of "Show Me Your Teeth".

Well crap. =O

Current Mood: busy

First of all, hello to my new friends!!! You can find stuff about me in my about happyevraftr tag :)

( real life stuff )

( fandom stuff )

Some Teen Wolf and True Blood spoilers in the cut above.

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Dear lord, this is turning into my confession blog- seriously. I'm sorry followers, there's at least some fic posts in between XD

God, I'm at a party right now and my sis is with me and, Jesus, I'm fucking embarrassed. She's totally ridiculously when shes drunk and I get easily embarrassed around her and for her. I legit hate taking her with me, but I hate her being home depressed by herself. Blech, I hate this. Ready to go home two hours ago.

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I can't begin to explain how frustrated I am with my parents Internet. For reasons I don't understand, it keeps kicking me out of my accounts. It won't let me log on to livejournal at all and other sites are iffy at best. I have two weeks left of pornathon and I'm so glad it's almost over cus this is turning into a nightmare.

Luckily were going to Jared's moms house tonight and I should be able to get my stuff for this week posted. I hope so. I worked really hard on this weeks bonus challenge and I think it's adorable!!

In other news, I've got a ridiculous amount of feedback on "Mirror, Mirror" and I just can't tell you guys how freaking happy it makes me. Over 4k hits and 200 kudos on AO3. SO FREAKING AWESOME!!! I don't even know what to say I'm so excited and honored. I love the Teen Wolf fandom SO much! Everyone is just so nice!

I hope everyone is doing well. I don't know how much I'll be able to do on here since everything has to be done from my phone.

Don't forget to go check out (and maybe vote for me!) the merlinxarthur fanfic challenge. :)

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So in the past couple weeks I've got random comments on a couple of my olderish stories on various websites and they've all been backhanded compliments. Like, 'this is great, but this part kinda sucked. but not really.' type of things. And I'm just kind of confused and a little bit pissed off.

I understand that writing is a growing process, and not everyone appreciates the same things- but I just find it rude. I would NEVER leave negative feedback on someone's work like that. Even if I really didn't like it, that's no reason to belittle the time and effort the author put into their story. If I was confused about their choices, I would politely ask them their thought processes, but not flat out say I hated it.

meh. I guess it's just getting my flamer/troll cherry popped but--- it really kind of upset me.

I'm considering taking my stuff down to be honest. Or at least making everything friends only. At this point in my writing, I do it for fun- for the creativity of it and as an outlet, not for people's affirmation.....but on the other hand I'm an insanely sensitive person and negative stuff that isn't constructive criticism really gets to me :(

Current Mood: depressed

Hello all!

I've been around, but I haven't posted in a while so I thought I should play catch up.

First of all, a HUGE thank you to

isisanubis for the surprise birthday card! Also a huge thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. It meant so much to me!

Fandomy things:

I'm participating in

summerpornathon this year!!!! We're already through the first challenge and it's been a whole lot of fun. Perfect for getting me back in the writing mode.

Teen Wolf is back!!!! I've gone a bit crazy with shipping Derek/Stiles. It's just so....yummy! I've even started a fic for this pairing! I haven't wrote for another fandom besides Merlin in over a year, so I'm pretty excited about it.

True Blood is already disappointing me after only one episode. I swear they always kill off the characters I love and keep the ones I hate. le sigh. The only thing I was happy over is that the Eric/Bill/Sookie thing seems to be on hold at least a little bit. I like all three characters far better when they're not fighting over Sookie.

I miss Vampire Diaries and Supernatural. I have a ton of summer shows I watch, but nothing compares to those two really. I already can't wait for it to be fall again.

RL things:

I didn't go to the job interview in Michigan. Part of me still wishes I would have, the other half of me knows it was probably the right decision. My mom and the rest of my family were pretty bummed though. My mom and I got into a huge fight because she kept saying it was all Jared's fault. I hung up on her and we worked everything out later. Everything's fine now though- the tire incident blew over really quickly and the rest of my birthday was great.

Last night the hubby was out of town so I had myself a little party. Made chocolate martinis which were super delicious. UV Cake vodka is really yummy and dangerous. Mixed it with root beer and it really tasted like a root beer float. mm!

We're moving in two weeks and I have one box packed :/ Still not sure how everything is going to work out, but excited at the same time. I've lived in this redneck town for seven years and it's time for a change.

I know my life is not nearly as unfortunate as others, so I try really really hard not to complain or get depressed----but it's been really hard lately. My student loan and tax rebate money ran out and were really struggling. Our landlord waited three weeks to cash our April check and so it bounced, leaving us in a bind. So now we owe April May and June rent and I dunno how that's gonna work out.

Right now I'm visiting home for my birthday and it's turned into a disaster. Day was fine but my parents wanted to get my tires rotated at the place we bought them up here. I just had the oil changed and tires checked for holes. The Walmart ppl told me they were getting pretty worn, but apparently they're really bad. I told my mom not to worry about it, but she's freaking out because of my six hour drive tomorrow. So we went back to the tire shop and apparently they're buying two new tires for me, which is $400.

My mom seems mad about it and I just feel like crying. I hate being poor and I hate being a burden on my mother or feeling like I'm in debt to them. It's so humiliating. Even worse I feel like my parents think Jared and I are not being responsible for whatever reason. The disappointed tone they use half the time drives me crazy

I do appreciate that my parents are willing to help me, I just wish it wasn't so necessary.

So much for a fun birthday home :((((((

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Current Mood: upset
Current Location: US, Illinois, Decatur, Macon, N Jasper St, 799

So I called the recruiter back and had a phone interview with him. He asked me to come in for an interview! So it looks like I'll be in Michigan on my birthday lol. I told the hubby about it and he wasn't very thrilled.

Part of me wants to call and cancel the interview considering he's such a debbie downer. I did find out they have locations all over Illinois, so I put in my application at the St. Louis location. If I hear back from them before the interview then I think I'll cancel it. Otherwise.....I'm gonna go. Does that make me a terrible person? I know it's going to cause a HUGE fight and major problems if I get the job. Either he will go and be grumpy, or he'll make me not go and I'll be grumpy. *sigh* I should have never applied for it in the first place :( I never expected to hear from them though!!!!!!

On the other hand, my mother is ridiculously excited about it. She really wants me to move there, and if I'm being honest- I want to too! I've really been looking forward to being close to my family. Now that I'm moving back home, they're moving away! If I was still single I have no doubt I would be looking for a job there exclusively. I think it would be fun to live somewhere new too. I've seen and done most of the stuff Chicago and St. Louis has to offer. Illinois just isn't exciting anymore, and now it's not home with my family gone. I think it would exciting to mix things up. If we didn't like it we could always move, but hubby is being so close minded about it. Being married is just so difficult at times!!!!!!!

If anything, this interview trip will give me a chance to see the area and decide once and for all if it's worth the trouble.

Current Mood: anxious

I was just checking my phone before bed and I had a voicemail from a job recruiter for Enterprise!!!! I realize it's just a recruiter and doesn't mean I have the job or anything, but it's the first call I've gotten since putting in all those applications. Only problem is that the job is in Michigan. My husband is pretty adamant about not wanting to move there. The only reason I applied there is because they don't have the management trainee program in Illinois or Missouri (that I could find) so I applied for a position that's right next to where my parents are moving. I really want to try and get the job. Enterprise has been rated the best place to start a career for like five years in a row. They have an excellent training program and promote from within. However, I'm not sure if I should even go through with it considering the hubby is so against living anywhere but Illinois. *sigh*

What to do?

I think I'll call the recruiter back and just not mention it to my husband unless it gets serious. He does know I applied for it at least. I don't really feel bad considering he STILL hasn't applied for a single job yet. I think he expects someone to randomly call him and be like 'hey, your name fell from the sky- do you want this awesome well paying job?' lol

Meh....I just have a bad feeling about this whole ordeal. If I get the job I'll be ecstatic but it's going to start world war three in my marriage :(

One day at a time I suppose.....

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Current Location: US, Missouri, Bolivar, Polk, E Circle Dr, 218

My husband graduates tomorrow (SO proud of him!) and so my in-laws are coming into town today. This meant a WHOLE lot of cleaning. I'm a pretty clean person naturally, but I have this problem that I just don't notice things are dirty. As soon as I do notice I get freaked out and go on a major cleaning spree. The house REALLY needed a good cleaning so I mopped and bleached and *whew* my feet hurt and I'm really tired now! But the house is clean and that has me in a great mood. Plus I'm excited for the in-laws to get here. I'm super fortunate and have one of the best mother-in-laws ever.

As far as writing goes....I haven't done anything since my glomp fic. I've been in the mood to write, just unsure of exactly what I want to do. I actually kind of want to take a break from Merlin stories for a while. I'm considering going back and finishing the True Blood WIP I started years upon years ago. I already had the outline done for it- I just got burnt out at the time. Hmmm....we'll see how that goes.

How are you all doing? Any fun plans for the weekend?

I'm so happy...I finally had time to update my journal and do some maintenance on some comms. woot!

Got my

merlin_canon story uploaded, now I just need to get my

merlin_games fic loaded. I want to clean that one up even more before I post it though. I ran out of time and it's not nearly where I wanted it to be. In fact, it originally started out as an entirely other plot line, but it was going to be far too long. I would like to write my first idea some time though. It would be pretty epic. Will also be posting my glomp fest fic next week- so exciting!!!

Real life is going pretty well too. I'm not graduating this semester, but I found out I only need to repeat one class and I'll be done. That will be super easy and I even still have the book. I'm soooo happy I'm nearly done. Getting my masters has been so much work!

Also got my license reinstated. It's been so irritating trying to deal with the court system, but I finally have my ticket taken care of and I'm a legal driver again. Now I just have to hire a lawyer and get my driving on a suspended license ticket cleared. I can't wait to move away from this state. They handle things absolutely terribly and loose paper work all the time. I never had problems like this when I lived in Illinois. I think they just get bored here and bother ppl when they shouldn't- it's extremely frustrating.

I would like to take a moment to bitch and moan about my schoolwork.

I'm working on a group project (well, two actually but the other one is already done) and they are having me edit the paper. Everyone in my class knows I write for fun, and am in the process of writing a novel-- so naturally they're all like- "hey! you're a good writer. you should edit our paper!" and I say yes, cus I'm like that but really, just cus I'm a writer doesn't mean I'm a good editor. COMPLETELY different. Any of my betas will tell you I'm really and truly terrible with punctuation. I never bothered to memorize all those rules.

However, it's a good thing I'm doing it cus they seriously suck at writing. I don't understand how they have got to a masters level program with the amount of suck they have going on. Sentences that don't make sense, a paragraph of nothing but repeat. AHHHH! It's terrible!! Plus I hate editing. I don't have the patience for it. Once again, you can ask my betas that. I do my best to do at least one through before I send it off to them, but I should do more than that and I know it's slightly rude of me (I love you my betas who put up with me!). But really....editing work makes my skin crawl. SOOOO glad this is my last paper for the semester- hopefully ever.

(minor disclaimer: don't feel scared to ask me to beta for you my friends. Editing stories is much more tolerable than school paperwork with people who don't know how to write =D )

Well now that I'm done ranting---have a great rest of your Tuesday!

Current Mood: frustrated

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