I hate my life sometimes

[happyevraftr]

I know my life is not nearly as unfortunate as others, so I try really really hard not to complain or get depressed----but it's been really hard lately. My student loan and tax rebate money ran out and were really struggling. Our landlord waited three weeks to cash our April check and so it bounced, leaving us in a bind. So now we owe April May and June rent and I dunno how that's gonna work out.

Right now I'm visiting home for my birthday and it's turned into a disaster. Day was fine but my parents wanted to get my tires rotated at the place we bought them up here. I just had the oil changed and tires checked for holes. The Walmart ppl told me they were getting pretty worn, but apparently they're really bad. I told my mom not to worry about it, but she's freaking out because of my six hour drive tomorrow. So we went back to the tire shop and apparently they're buying two new tires for me, which is $400.

My mom seems mad about it and I just feel like crying. I hate being poor and I hate being a burden on my mother or feeling like I'm in debt to them. It's so humiliating. Even worse I feel like my parents think Jared and I are not being responsible for whatever reason. The disappointed tone they use half the time drives me crazy

I do appreciate that my parents are willing to help me, I just wish it wasn't so necessary.

So much for a fun birthday home :((((((

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